Your conscience and your soul

Someone asked me, ‘What does the soul contain? Where is the mind in our body? How do I know it is my higher self taking decisions in my day to day life happenings?’. Here are some points which you can think over if they make sense to you. Some of this is from standard books and some from my personal experiences and understanding.

‘What does the soul contain?’

Your Soul is your awareness, a spark of divine energy. There is an energy inside you which is aware, conscious, alert, intelligent. It is because of this awareness that you animate this ‘body’ (your ‘body’ has 5 layers, detailed post here). When the Soul’s aware energy exits the body, the body loses awareness ie dies. Your Soul is constant, unchangeable, eternal, indestructible. The body is obviously destructible. The body exists only for the sake of creating and enjoying/enduring karma and its repercussions. The horoscope can analyse just this 5-layered body. The horoscope cannot be used to analyse the Soul. The enveloping layers of the body are sometimes called ‘Maya’ ie the undefinable or ‘Deha-buddhi’ ie the intellect limited by the enveloping body. This geometric envelope obscures the light of the Soul. Thus your awareness is obscured, lowered and limited to only the body, you cannot perceive or experience your real nature. You are made to forget that you are pure awareness, pure Soul. It is like a fog drawn over your real Awareness. As you forget that you are the Soul, you start believing that you are the body.

Most of your clients will be in this category, they fully believe that they are the 5 layers of the body. Thus they create more karma, the impulses of their past karmas affect them deeply, they deeply laugh/cry and enjoy/endure Maya. You can chart out their life reasonably accurately using their own horoscope’s patterns. Your horoscope shows your Prarabdha karma ie how much karma have you have decided to go through in this life. The body will continue till this target is achieved then dissolve. And the horoscope also shows the possibility of Agami karma, ie how new karma will be created in this life. (Sanchita karma is your total karmic backlog)

Some people who have done practices to increase their ‘awareness’ understand that they are not the body but are the pure Soul. These people know this as a concept but they have not experienced this in the real sense as yet. They are working on it, doing their regular spiritual practice with intention. These people are somewhat immune to the ravages of karma on the body, but they are still influenced by it. You might see this happening to yourself if you are a spiritual aspirant. eg you are committed to your spiritual practice and in one critical transit of Saturn or Rahu/Ketu or Jupiter (slow planets), you lose all your focus. The material beckons you again, you want to go out with your girlfriend/ boyfriend or you suddenly feel that spiritual path is going well so now it is time to enjoy some material comforts. Your Deha-buddhi or Maya tries to assert itself and to pull you away from your pursuit of Awareness. These are testing times, if you lose focus now, you slip very badly.

As you advance deeper into your spiritual practice, as you increase your awareness levels, you get nearer to the pure Soul Experience. As you reach closer to your destination, the karmic impacts lessen but the karmic tests become even more subtle. If you cross all these and Realise the Soul, you are called a Jivan-mukt. At this stage, you are pure Soul, your awareness, consciousness, intelligence has reached the highest possible position, this is called the Advaita state. You experience yourself continually. You are aware of yourself all the time, in every state, in every condition of the body, you remain immersed in Intelligence, you Know you are the Soul. At this state your Soul has removed the envelope Maya, dissolved the Deha-buddhi and Seen itself forever. The fog has cleared and the light shines through. Now the Soul may remain in the body till its prarabdha karma is exhausted, ie till the physical dissolution of the body. But during this period its Awareness is Eternal. During this period from Realisation to the death of the physical body, the Soul is completely dissociated from the karma of the body. Whatever may happen to the body, You are not concerned in any way whatsoever. And you are Pure Awareness now, you do not create any more karma, ie no Agami karma is created and Sanchita karma is burnt the instant you See yourself.

So in short, Soul is Awareness. When you experience yourself as the Pure Awareness, the Nirvishesh Brahma, you attain Nirgun Moksh.

Your conscience and your soul

The soul is located ‘behind’ the Ajnya chakra in a dedicated ‘ashta-padma-dala-chakra, ‘eight-petalled Lotus’ chakra. This is a specialised chakra, ie the Brahmanadi within the Sushumna nadi loops around itself here and creates this specific energy vertex. These loops are in all possible dimensions. The Hamsa Upanishad describes this chakra in detail. The Soul resides here in an energy form called ‘Hamsa‘. (This Hamsa is composed of the energies of Agni, Soma Rudra, Rudrani, Kaal, Om and Bindu.)

The possible eight tendencies of this chakra are – 1. doing virtuous actions, 2. sleep, laziness etc, 3. doing cruel actions, 4. doing inauspicious deeds, 5. sensual gratification, 6. doing movement type of activities, 7. indulging in lust/sexual desires and 8. desire for accumulating material stuff. These eight tendencies are linked to the eight loops of the chakra. ie when Soul/awareness is linked to a particular loop, tendencies linked to it are activated in the body. When awareness exists ‘between’ these loops, there is indifference to material pleasures, an ascetic mindset. The three states of existence, waking state, dreaming state, deep sleep state are linked to the central axis of this ‘lotus’, at the ‘stamen’, ‘basal sepals’ and ‘innermost seed’ of this ‘lotus’. The fourth state, Turiya is possible when the Awareness leaves this chakra. And the final Turiya-teet, the beyond Turiya, ie Moksh is possible when this Awareness merges itself in the Eternal Non-dual. The Upanishad says that 1crore jaap/ repeats of the Hamsa mantra lead to Moksh.

Your conscience and your soul

Where is the mind in our body?

There are 5 layers of the body. Physical body is anna-mai-kosh. Subtle body is the three layers of pran-mai-kosh, mano-mai-kosh and vidnyan-mai-kosh. Causal body is the anand-mai-kosh. Then is the Soul within these multiple layers. This complex is called a Jiv-atma, the individual soul, as it is enveloped in this body/karmic baggage.

Mind is the Mano-mai-kosh, which is concerned with mental processes and emotions. Here emotions are on a relatively low level as the power of discrimination does not exist in this layer. ie all living animals who can understand pain have this layer active in their bodies. This layer is a part of the subtle body, sookshma sharir, controlled by the Moon in your horoscope. When you physically die, the outermost layer, physical body, anna-mai-kosh is discarded. So when you exist in the Pitr-lok, the dimension of the spirits, your soul is enveloped by a 4-layered body. Imprints stored in these 4 layers require several life-times to be rebalanced. This is why you can gauge your past lives from your horoscope especially in the Sudarshan chakra format.

Its between you and your conscience

‘How do I know it is my higher self taking decisions in my day to day life happenings?’

A personal example. Quite a few years ago, I was suffering because of an intense black ritual done by someone to damage me. A very deep damage on all levels. So I was doing healings, taking help from genuinely kind tantriks, ie using ‘white magic’. The pain was very intense, recovery was slow and I was really very scared. Someone I trusted, almost a brother, offered to do a secret ritual to help me, he did not give me the details. I asked my brother for his opinion. He in good faith said to give it a shot. So despite not being very convinced myself, I agreed and that person did the ritual. My conscience was in doubt but in the temptation of hastening my recovery, I agreed to get it done. But this was not the correct way, I actually got scolded badly by a very high level divinity. Then I suffered through these additional karmic repercussions. And it was a burden on my conscience. I had asked my brother for his opinion, the person who did it was genuine, they both wanted the best for me. But the final decision was mine, I had agreed despite the doubt raised by my conscience. Thus I suffered through the karma, I had regrets and felt very ashamed. So whoever might suggest something to you, however tempting it maybe, if your higher self/ Antaratma/ conscience is in doubt, it will come to a bad end. And it is your decision, so you alone are responsible for what happens to you.

The inner light of your Soul is your conscience, the Antar-atma. If you are doing spiritual practice, stilling your mind and emotions, the voice of your conscience is all the more audible.

Suppose you are in a situation and you have to choose between options. Naturally you will have evaluated the material aspects of both the options in depth. You know what will give you your desired material results. Now you put it to your conscience. Take a deep breath and close your eyes. Focus between your eyebrows, look in your third eye. Do some Pranayam. Recite Soham (or any other mantra you prefer) a few times with your breath in your mind, manasik jaap. Still your emotions and your scattered thoughts. Then gently think about the option you propose to take. Do you feel right about it? What kind of visions are triggered by this thought? Do you see a flash of bright happy colors, bright lights or depressed dark colors, blackness? Does your heart feel lighter or heavier. You might have physical signs like hair standing on end or feeling cold or a constriction at your throat or something. Your conscience will find some way and give you a sign that the action you chose is appropriate or not. And it will give you very clear signals. Once you have your answer do not ask your question again and again. And once you are clear about your decision, do not listen to others who might try to sway or convince you to go against your conscience. However tempting it may be do not go against your inner voice. This voice comes from your Soul itself.

I do not advocate using horoscope, runes, cards or any divination tools for these conscience related decisions. These divination tools are more linked to the sub-conscious mind. Sometimes cards show you what you consciously want to see, I have seen this happen several times. Or you choose to see those meanings in them which you desire on the material front. So you deceive yourself, attracted by the temporary gains you think you see.

(Classic example, you get 4 of Cups ‘Luxury’ in the Thoth tarot, for a relationship question. This card can show a potentially emotionally nurturing relationship but there is a very deep imbalance in it. This card indicates that you desire deep emotional fulfilment, but this relationship under question is the wrong way to go about it. This card represents temporary superficial attractiveness with an undercurrent of deep stagnation. You have deep emotional needs but you are aggravating the imbalance by desiring things which you don’t really need! This relationship in question is a dead end and you need to focus on something else which gives you real and deep emotional satisfaction. Now which Tarot reader has read so much into the energies of the cards to give this sort of interpretation? And the name ‘Luxury’ can tempt you to get into the relationship and then into emotional trouble later.)

Your conscience goes deeper than the conscious or the sub-conscious mind. It is your actual Soul showing you its Light. For a brief moment the Light of the Soul pierces through the enveloping fog and shows you the direction most appropriate for you. And finally you are responsible for your decisions, whatever happens to you, happens by your choice.

So Choose well.

Its between you and your conscience

Saturn’s energies and you

Am sure you would wonder why would anyone want to increase the energies of Saturn in their life. Well, we are not increasing/decreasing anything, we are just trying to balance it and make effective use of it.

Wherever Saturn is placed, he puts restrictions and constrictions on the keywords of that house. If badly placed, then he can cause quite a lot of problems, from physical aging, to problems in social identity, profession, money flow, problems in the residence, nameless fears, no comforts, pessimistic attitude, emotional restrictions, no rest, no sleep etc.  He is exalted in Libra and debilitated in Aries (the exact opposite for his father the Sun). However after he matures at the age of 36yrs, his actions become more understandable. Sun, Moon  and Mars are his enemies, MercuryVenus, Rahu are friends with him and Jupiter and Ketu are sort of neutral to him. He is a natural malefic and has the ability to strike fear.

  • Saturn can perform generally well in houses 2nd, 3rd, 7th, 8th, 9th, 10th, 11th and 12th, but this is a very generic statement. You will need to check what aspects he is under and what houses he owns too. E.g. Saturn in the 8th house will give a long life, i.e. he restricts death, but if there are other influences he might make it difficult to leave the aged body! More malefics influence him, more problems will he cause.
  • Saturn in the 1st, 4th, 5th and 6th houses generally gives troubling results unless balanced out by some benefic influences. (One exception here is Libra ascendant, if Saturn is in Libra, as yogkarak and exalted, he can even grant Moksh if other planets support.)
  • If you have Saturn aspecting/conjoint the Sun or the Moon take special care of your eyes.

The Saturn beej mantra is, ‘Om praang preeng prowng sah Shanischarya namah’, which can be recited once, thrice or 108 times on Saturdays.

Saturn's energies and you

There are a few things that you can do to regulate and balance Saturn’s energies.

  1. You can add the colors, smells/fragrances and food tastes linked to Saturn in your life. Don’t overwhelm yourself, just a touch here and there.
  2. Take care of your teeth, brush with astringent toothpastes.
  3. Also take care of your bones, take your calcium and eat a healthy diet.
  4. If you drink milk, do not drink buffalo milk, stick to cow milk.
  5. Try to get an oil based massage once in a while. If it is not possible do a self-massage, apply your favourite massage oil to your feet, hands and head etc wherever you can easily and then shower.
  6. Avoid non vegetarian food and alcohol. It may be impossible but then if you can try to limit yourself to just fish for the protein and limit alcohol intake for only at social events.
  7. Feed ravens once in a while, give them chapati or bread something made of grains. (If ravens are not available near where you live then next option is crows)
  8. Do not lie and do not cheat. Such an important lesson, our teachers taught us when we were children. Also avoid taking up professions where you are required to lie all the time! e.g. lawyers? (If you are already a lawyer, help a genuine poor, blind or aged client free of charge once in a while).

And the kindest things that you can do are these acts of charity. These will help your own soul as well as bring real happiness to those who are forgotten by society. Do this with a genuine intention of being of service with love and respect.

  1. Call up your aged parents or grandparents once a week, or run some errands for them if you get the time.
  2. If you can afford it, maybe once a year, give a treat, sweets or fruits to an old age home. If it is not possible then take your own aged parents or grandparents for a special treat once in a while. Be compassionate.
  3. Specifically try to help out blind people or aged people. It can be as simple as helping them on the street or giving up your seat in the bus.

Saturn is the energy of Karma, you have to pay-back and rebalance, there is no option sometimes. So some pain will be involved. Interpreting Saturn’s role in your horoscope is very typical. You do not like the lessons that he teaches, he can be quite harsh. So try to bring into yourself the qualities of responsibility, silence, self-discipline, detachment and objectivity, in short ‘grow up’. Know that you have to give back, if you can give it back gracefully, karma will be more easily satisfied.

 

Saturn's energies and you

Karma from the ancestors

The ‘family’ related houses in your horoscope are

the 2nd house – the actual family in which you have been born, its status in society, the wealth and power wielded by your family. Also the ways you will contribute by your own actions of hoarding and accumulating treasure. (If you are adopted or fostered or put in a boarding school or at some relative’s house or for some reason separated from your birth family you should also check out the 9th house.) Venus is the natural ruler of this house and subtly contributes to the dignity and benefits from this house, so analyse Venus, his position and power in the chart. If he is with malefics/benefics, if placed in a difficult house, the planets aspecting/conjoint him, is he retrogradecombust etc.

the 3rd house – the siblings, brothers/sisters and the cousins in general. Also your boldness in conducting yourself in these affairs of the the extended family. This is a function of Mercury in the case of siblings, he is also the natural ruler of the 3rd house of the zodiac. And Mars in the case of specifically brothers.

the 4th house – the mother, everything to do with your emotional comforts and security in all ways. The Moon is the agent of the mother so do analyse his placement and position. If he is placed in the dushamstan i.e. 6th, 8th, 12th. Or with malefics, natural or temporary. Also if he is debilitated or eclipsed or in a Gandant. I have seen cases where Moon was placed badly and the children suffering quite severely because of the mother.

the 5th house – the children, of the DNA or of the soul, and all the ways you pass on your creativity. The natural ruler of this house is the Sun so check out his power to give results in the horoscope. Do you have the divine intelligence and inspiration to carry on your legacy by producing offspring?

the 7th house – the husband or wife, your Dharm-pati or Dharm-patni. This is marriage the Vivah Sanskar, and in Vedic context of Jyotish requires a man and a woman. This directly leads to production of children of your DNA. In the case of a person’s union with the spiritual self, this house will lead to the production of the children of the soul. The natural planets connected to this house are Mars, Venus and Jupiter.

the 9th house – the ancestors, the father-like figures in your life who support and guide you in your life. The real teacher/Guru who makes you dwij/twice-born. This is the domain of Jupiter.

the 10th house – the father and everything to do with this one person in your life. There have been cases where a bad father has caused trauma to his children. Also the Sun is naturally linked to this house. However the natural owner of this house is Saturn thus influences this house wherever he may be placed.

These are the closest relations who make up your family. Your personal karma is linked to your heredity, to all the ancestors, so if your birth time is absolutely precise, the divisional chart 12 will give you your answers. Analyse the position of the mother and the father from the D-12 chart to know about the specific karma linked to your mother’s and father’s family. If you are inclined, you can go in-depth using the D-40 for the mother’s family and the D-45 for the precise karma linked to the father’s side of the family. Your personal individual karma is seen from D-60.

Karma from the ancestors

First analyse is 9th house, the house of foundations or Bhagya/fortune. Now the 1st house is the 5th house counted from the 9th, thus your manifested physical body, life and social standing etc is an expression of the actions/inspiration/intelligence of the agents of the 9th house. Your ancestors/pitr, you carry their genes, their culture, their property/assets, their name in the society etc. If there are problems in the 9th house they will cause serious impacts on your entire existence. I have written on how to completely analyse a house in your horoscope earlier so try it with the 9th house of the chart.

The Dharma trikon is mainly affected so analyse your ascendant/1st house then your 5th house. Your existence is derived from your ancestors and your children are derived from you and then you become an ancestor to your children, it is cyclic.

Most of these karmic effects relate to the ‘fortune’, marriage and children. These include susceptibility to magic, nightmares, possession by spirits. Then late marriages or multiple marriages, divorces, impotency. Further abortions, miscarriages, disabled children, death of young children, no sons. Mental problems, suicides, diseases with no cures, addictions etc. Children getting married to unsuitable men/women, running away, or getting widowed in young age, or having multiple affairs, falling into prostitution, getting involved in ‘moral crimes’ which go against the conscience. Legal issues and complications in courts. Fights and ill-will within the family members etc.

If you see any family with such events, the charts of the people will show some common points. Significantly strong malefics in the 9th, 1st or 5th houses. The most potent combination is Rahu/Ketu in these houses with some other malefic force giving them direction. Then more malefic influences on the other houses depending on which problems they are going through. e.g. If someone is going through a karmic linked disease, the 8th house will be further affected. If he has lost property because of litigations, the 4th and 7th will be further damaged. If he is not getting a stable income and loss of status in profession/society is the 10th house etc.

Most of these issues are caused due to ‘family curses’, or more appropriately some karma which was supposed to be done by or for the ancestor which is pending. Most commonly it is that funeral rites were not performed thus the soul is trapped on earth. This can be truly disastrous, sometimes ancient houses are haunted. Or some ancestor did some terrible thing/negative karma for which the entire generation is suffering. Maybe murdered someone, I have seen this the husband killed the wife a few generations ago and there were problems for the present generation. Or something which was due but was not repaid by some ancestor.

But this is not the whole story.

Why should you suffer because of some mistake your ancestor did? In fact you dont! You are suffering because of your own Karma, you created some negative karma like, aborting a child, not performing funeral rites for someone you were required to, not repaying things which you should have, committed suicide, raped someone, prostituted someone, produced children and then did not acknowledge them, abandoning your parents or wife/husband, or someone dependant on you, misused your knowledge to harm someone, even trapped spirits to use them against their will, in short did something so deep, so much against your Dharm, that in this life you have sealed off the gentler means of balancing karma.

Your own conscience/Antaratma judged you and you are now being made to go through the same thing yourself. When you have endured a significant portion of the karma, you will be given the chance to balance off the remaining through pujas/mantra/charity etc the energy route.

The 9th house not only represents the ancestors but it is all that you are going to receive in your current life because of the actions from your past lives, good bad or indifferent.

(Will continue in my next post)

 

Karma from the ancestors

This is in response to this comment I received, “Dear astrologer-by-default,
I love reading your posts and there’s so much to learn! Can you write about ancestral trauma and parental wounds…how they influence our life and ways to heal them? Thanks in advance.”

 

How to not create Karma?

(This is in response to this Comment I received in the Contact form: Excellent post on medical astrology! Could you write about placements/nakshatras/planets that incline individuals towards the metaphysical and occult pursuits of life? How does one balance karma doing so and not get into karmic entanglements?)

Karma is the bogeyman! If something goes wrong with you, your neighbour will be like (a tad gleefully),’ it’s your karma, you have to face it!”. Or if your friends feel that you have got something going for you which you don’t deserve, they will be like, “this is your good karma from your past lives!”. Sometimes you will give Rs 5/- to a beggar to create good karma for yourself. Spiritually inclined people on the other hand are wary of creating more karma of any sort. However beautiful it may look, Karma is entanglement with others because of your desires/conditioning.

I have written a post on how to judge spirituality from the horoscope here. Metaphysics, I guess means ‘spirituality’, the things which cannot be perceived by our limited 5 senses. Desire to achieve Moksh is antithetical to living a comfortable life in the physical universe. It is obvious I think, when you have filled your store houses with all the experiences that the manifested Universe has to offer, when you have enjoyed all the relationships to the fullest, you leave . Combinations which may not be seen as favourable for the ‘real-life’ things will be conducive to the spiritual route. The spiritual route is the way out. All planets and houses contribute in some way to this ‘spirituality’. (will write about the astrological combinations related to ‘occult’ in my next post)

If there is a background of reasonably good level of ‘spirituality’ in the horoscope the chances of creating a load of negative karma will lessen. You will be less entangled and/or whatever karma is binding you, will resolve.

How to not create Karma?

How to not create new karma? Shri Krishna is quite clear in his Bhagwat Gita. To condense it in one statement, ‘Do your Dharm’. But as Bhishma says in the same Mahabharat, ‘Dharm is subtle’. After these two statements which say it all, I can just add my very limited thoughts and experiences.

The problem of recognition – There is a rather unfortunate (from the spiritual point of view) expectation that one needs to be recognised for doing their work. Simple example, I am a mother so am expected to take care of my child, pack his tiffin, give him Sanskar, etc. This is my Dharm. When I do all this my conscience is satisfied. I do not expect my son to thank me for this. I have done my Dharm.

And because it is my Dharm, I am supposed to do it, so there should be no sense of ego about doing it. Should I be awarded for doing something that I am supposed to be doing in the first place? If I leave my child unattended and neglect him, my conscience will point it out to me. If I ignore my conscience, it will be registered as a negative Karma. Only my conscience/Antaratma has the power to judge my actions, no one else.

The problem of expectations – It is human nature, one might say, to expect and anticipate. And then later to get disappointed. It is not being pessimistic, e.g. however well my son performs I might think it is less. He works hard in school and gets an A grade, but I might get disappointed as I want him to get a A+ grade! (Several parents think like this and cause deep-seated traumas in their child.)

Karma is caused because of human nature. I might say, “I looked after my child, now as I get old, he is bound to look after me”. This sort of thought process will cause needless pain. I had written a post on forgiveness earlier. I should focus on my own action now, not bother about my son’s possible future actions. If I do my Dharm because I expect my son to follow his Dharm later, this is a negative thought process. I should do my Dharm because I should do it, for no other reason.

The problem of emotions – Dharm/Karma concepts do not mean that I am a robot, without emotions. When my conscience is satisfied with my actions it gives me deeper satisfaction and joy not linked to the ego. ‘I did my job perfectly’ is ego. But ‘circumstances came about perfectly and enabled me to do my job’ is a better thought process. I should give credit to the Universe for bringing the exact resources to me so that I could cook food and make my child’s tiffin. This way I remain grounded. (And remembering a previous life where I was very poor helps in reinforcing this thought process!). I should feel happy, sad, irritated, dejected, guilty, anxious, etc, but with the over-riding awareness that this too shall pass. I try to not get attached to these emotions very deeply because these are quite temporary. And to feel an inner joy in every action that I perform, it takes a bit of work but I try the best I can.

The problem of blaming others – This happens a lot with the clients I see. We all refuse to accept responsibility for our actions, most often in inter-personal relationships with the people closest to us. And the people closest to us are linked with the biggest karmic link.

The narrative is the same, ‘my wife argues so I argue with her’. But then, ‘Focus on what you are doing. You are also arguing and reinforcing the karmic link. So you will be stuck with this same argumentative wife in your next life too! Do you want this? Instead try to talk through and resolve it like mature grown-ups’. Getting a client to understand this idea of karma is utterly difficult. I think they enjoy arguing at their inner levels.

I do this too, get trapped in activity/mental/emotional loops, but recognising this as a loop is the first step.

YOLO? You (certainly do not) live only once! No one goes anywhere, every act/feeling is recorded in the astral self. If I feel/act very with strong attachments it will be recorded strongly. If I behave irresponsibly because I think ‘I live only once’, it can create loads of karma for the future lives. So it is best to think twice about the thought processes and philosophical base of the life/actions.

Being independent – If I know what I am supposed to do/my Dharm, I am free. My actions are not dependant on other people. I know my role and I know that I am doing it to the best of my ability. Later even if my boss says that I haven’t done my part, my conscience knows that I have! I cannot be made to feel bad by the other’s behaviour. So listening to the conscience, not the ego is key.

Follow your conscience. And because we are so used to being deaf to our inner voice, we all need to do some tiny regular spiritual activity or be with nature so that we remain silent and listen to our conscience speak.

 

Analysing Vimshottari dasha of rulers of houses 1-6

 

Forgive yourself to Heal yourself

We all chose our fate for this one life at the moment of our birth, this is seen as the horoscope chart which we read. Now there are always some ups and downs. It is so strange that we never question the ‘ups’ but rue the ‘downs’ of life. We blame the Universe our mom/dad, the husband/wife, our teachers and even our children for our problems. But it is time we realise that, the problems and their solutions are both within our own self.

Forgiveness is such a hot item in the market, that I felt like writing my very practical take on it. I think a bit differently, as always. So here it is.

The feeling of forgiveness is an energy. Energy can never be destroyed, but can be transmuted or transferred. Forgiveness arises only after experiencing intense emotional pain. The pain is so intense that you have no other ‘real’ way of resolving it, so you forgive. Forgiveness is about you and never about the other person. When you forgive, you return energy to the one who gave you that pain. This ensures your freedom. This really happens very rarely in a life-time because you cling on to negative energies and never think of freeing yourself through forgiveness.

Most of us turn forgiveness into a show of magnanimity, displaying the largeness of our hearts, turn it into a public spectacle, try to impress others with our nobility of spirit. When you ‘turn the other cheek’, follow a society rule-book, or try to gain socially by ‘forgiving’, you basically feed your ego and get attached to being on the high moral ground. ‘I am better than you because I forgive your heinous behaviour!’, simply does not work.

If you really want to forgive, the motive should be, to do the right thing by your own Conscience/Antar-atma. Forgiveness is no strings attached, you give it away. You cannot consciously plan self-gain when forgiving. True forgiveness happens only as a last resort. This is when you have tried all ways of resolving, re-balancing, healing and everything has failed. When the ego fails, you forgive. This happens only when you go through deep emotional pain. Such pain cannot be resolved by holding on to it. It has to be released and it will leave you only when you forgive yourself for choosing it in the first place. Forgiveness is always an intensely private affair, between you and yourself.

Forgive yourself to Heal yourself

Choices! You chose your emotional problem. Now you will choose the solution. Whatever you choose, the first step out is to forgive yourself for choosing the pain in the first place.

Example. Your wife died tragically young, leaving you with a baby to raise. You feel hurt, lost, resentful and in emotional pain. This is an injustice, you shout out at your Gods, at the Universe! Can the legal system help redress? Can any one else even do anything? No! You have to do this for yourself. You have to let go of this pain by forgiving yourself for choosing this experience. Release that painful energy to the Universe in this case. This is a bitter karmic lesson, learn it now in this life, forgive yourself, so that you don’t face the same situation in your next life.

Example. You buy a extra flat for investment and your brother asks to stay there. You agree but then he never vacates and you have lost possession of the flat. You try talking to him. Your parents also take his side. You can of course go to the courts to get him evicted but it is not worth the trouble. You have enough income and the flat was extra. Your brother’s behaviour has hurt your trust. You are reconciled to the loss of the flat, but you are hurt, deeply resentful and in emotional pain. How do you recover? There are no social or legal ways now. So, Forgive? The last resort. It is like an emotional surgery. A sample how-to-do.

  1. First think about what was the problem really?
    • Your trusting him? Or his betraying you?
    • Generally all normal persons trust their family members. So you definitely were not the problem. Betraying a family member’s trust was the problem. The problem was created by him.
  2. Identify the source of the toxic energy which is creating negative energy in you.
    • In our example this is not you. It has come from your brother.
  3. Acknowledge that Events occur as scripted in the horoscope. This was your choice at birth. So acknowledge that this event was to happen at this point of time.
    • You were to attract these energies of betrayal from your brother. The timing and the conditions were such that this foreign energy came in to you and got stuck on you. Temporarily, you attracted it from your brother!
  4. Now to remove this toxic energy. Emotional pain always burrows deep into the sub-conscious and astral bodies. It needs to be removed by its roots, else it can continue on to the future lives too. (Doing guided meditation also helps.)
    • This will take a bit of intention and conscious will.
    • Do a bit of grounding and cleansing with sea-salt water before and after this conscious act of ‘forgiveness’.
    • Relax and try to settle your mind. Think of your source of faith /universe /reiki /favourite deity etc.
    • Speak the sentences out loud. It should be from your heart in the language you are comfortable in. Something like this. ‘This energy of betrayal which had come to me from my brother, it does not belong to me, I have no use for it, I return it to its source where it properly belongs.’ and visualise it leaving you.
  5. After this removal (forgiveness), feel your light filled self. Visualise yourself covered by pearly silver-gold energy. Visualise the Universal source of light and love. Connect your pearly shield with this Source. Feel yourself enveloped by its comforting love. Relax.
  6. If the emotional context was too severe you may need to repeat this process a few times. This will ensure freedom from the toxicity and you will be secure in your own clear emotions.

Forgiveness ends the emotional hurt for the one who forgives.

Forgive yourself to Heal yourself

For the one being forgiven, this does not mean that he is released from the burden of pain he gave. Far from it. One who consciously decides to emotionally or physically harm others, creates quite a bit of great deal of karmic pain for himself in some future life. The internal conscience is always judging, always! Your brother will face the consequences of his actions without a doubt. Karma cannot be escaped. It will ensure balance.

Forgiveness is not cowardice. And it is neither denial or suppression of emotions. It is neither reconciling to the pain. It is trusting the higher forces of Karma and putting yourself out of the picture.

Forgiveness releases you from the burden of this thought, “I have to ensure that this person who has hurt me gets punished. This is my responsibility”. In the personal context, there are several hurts which always remain deeply private. Social or legal justice has its limits. If you tie the one who hurt you to yourself like this, you will need to power this thought. This drains energy which could have been put to better use. You use precious soul-energy to hold on to resentment, pain, loss, torment, defeat, negativity, why? Let it go away from you. Know that karma exists and trust it to do its job. By forgiving yourself, you get free from the burden of grief. Concentrate on your well-being.

When someone hurts you on the emotional level, this should be your response, “You hurt me, I did nothing to deserve it. I will not keep this act within me. I am returning this energy back to you. I will not keep this energy and neither this emotional hurt within me.” Intend this consciously, forgive and be free.

Never cling to memories of injustice, it is exhausting, it drains you of your potential to be happy. And tell yourself, “my Self, my Lovely Self, always be Happy, it is your Real Nature!”.

 

Forgive yourself to Heal yourself

 

Your conscience is judging your self

Judging someone else is the worst thing anyone can do. Because at a deep level we are all judging our own selves, at every instant. Our own eyes are watching our actions and our Conscience is aware.

If you have read my past posts, the main theme of Life is to repay our debts, get rid of the excess baggage and finally see our true Reality. On this road to Self realization, there is no right and no wrong, everything is possible and do-able. The only condition that your actions must satisfy your own Conscience. If your Antar-atma, inner-self, is satisfied with what you are doing then a part of the debt is considered repaid, karma is balanced out. But if your own conscience raises an objection then your this act gets registered as another item of debt and will have to be repaid in the future. You have created new karma.

So who are we to judge someone else? And how can we judge them? By social standards? Moral standards? Law? All these terms are a product of the age we live in. In some other age it was acceptable to fight duels and kill persons who had wronged you. It was possible to carry away someone’s wife and daughter. It was expected from 14 year old boys to join armies, fight and kill. And even 12 yr old girls got married and had children by the age of 13!

So there is really no point in wasting our energy thinking and judging others. We can never understand why they did what they did! Everyone carries their own judge, jury and prison too, with them. A soul may choose any means possible for the most effective resolution of his karma. Not convinced?

One example is a Sanyasi who has left the society and is doing very intense penances/ tapa to balance his karma.  The society looks on the Sanyasi with a mixture of awe and fear but he does not care about what they think of him. He has chosen this off-beat path for faster resolution of his karmic baggage. Man is a social animal. A human staying away from the society either by choice or force is a very drastic step. And then the other extreme example, a prostitute who also lives on the edges of the society. She is considered disreputable and shunned by the “respectable society” but she does not care. She is paying back her karmic debts by sharing her energy with random persons. There is no right or wrong, just the personal conscience. Who can judge you, but you yourself?

Your conscience is judging your self

There are more examples of such drastic choices. One of my clients is doing quite well on the spiritual path. She came to me because she was worried her in-laws were sending her ill-will. I checked her aura and the horoscope and yes, a rather low level spirit was around her causing minor troubles. But she was sufficiently able to deal with it herself, she had the strength, why come to me? She told me she was rather uneasy, but not able to define why. So I took her through a guided meditation. Then she told me what she saw, in some previous life, she was killed when pregnant and her spirit/ pret-atma was used, trapped. She, as a bound spirit, was forced by her master to do such horrible things that she was severely traumatized herself. Her mind had shattered to such an extent during that phase, that she was born insane for a few lives thereafter. In this life, strangely she was scared to even look at insane persons. It was the first time I had seen such a case. In her horoscope too there were indications, a retrograde Saturn with a retrograde Mars in the 12th house, I just never even imagined such an interpretation. My client wept and then with that release came understanding and acceptance. Now she is not scared of insane persons and can deal with the spirits carrying her in-law’s ill-will herself. And I have now a new respect for the insane persons on the streets. What could be their history that the soul made such a drastic choice to live with no mind?

I cannot judge anyone for the choices that they make. Especially after seeing such clients and their horoscopes.

What ever one does is between him and his conscience.

 

Your conscience is judging your self