Speak out!

We are always under so much pressure to conform, our parents, our teachers, our friends, the husband/wife, the children, the boss everyone has expectations from you. So you are the good little boy, a quiet student, the best buddy, the ideal man, the perfect worker, the best dad.. thats is a lot of work you have put in. But then in all this, who are you really? All these definitions are words stuck on you by others, thus hiding your own identity.

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Another problem with others expectations is that, though you may feel overwhelmed but still you labour on because you are scared to hurt their feelings. Or in some self sadist way you think, “I will ruin my health doing work for him, then he will understand how much I have given up for him”. Else you feel that you are stronger and can afford to overwork yourself for those others. And the others keep on taking advantage of you.

Also it may be possible that the others may care about you really, but do not realise how tired you are working non stop. Just because you are so perfect at hiding yourself. You never speak out, never say that you are tired, just work like a robot. This is a problem then. You have to learn to speak up.

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One of my clients is a woman, a PhD, a highly paid professional she works 6 days a week but also cooks food, takes care of her children and the parents. Is a dedicated wife and does her pujas etc too regularly. Even as a child she was an obedient child, good at studies and also arts/crafts. An ideal personality on the outside, but on the inside she was stressed out to the point of breaking but unable to express herself. Her horoscope analysis showed, ascendent libra, with saturn, mars, jupiter retrograde, mercury caizimi (within 1 degree of the sun) and true nodes in direct motion. Added to all this her ascendent venus was conjunct with ketu in the 5th house.

  1. Libra ascendent is a very typical person. Outwardly very balanced, likes beauty, polite, very good company, fair just etc but internally in a free fall and the back aches almost continually. They provide support to almost everyone they are in contact with, are extremely understanding and sensible. Thus when they are in need of support themselves, no one really believes them. Thus they do not get the support they desperately need so the physical support of the body, the back, aches.
  2. Retrograde planets, everyone has 1-2 planets retrograde, 3 is a bit rare but added to it the true node direct (they are usually retrograde) made for some very interesting observations.
  3. Saturn retrograde will make the person work and work and work, despite being very well off she was doing office and house work both.
  4. Retrograde Jupiter may make a person religious but will not give the results of the pujas, will be directionless spiritually or a follower of off-beat philosophies. Her pujas were certainly not being very fruitful.
  5. Mars retrograde is the saddest possible combination, as the expression of the will is nil, such a person cannot say “no”, is the silent worker without recognition.
  6. Mercury kaizmi, the powers of mercury were completely burnt out as it was less than 1degree from the sun. She could not communicate especially when talking about herself. Would develop a slight stammer and not find the words. It was painful to see someone like that.
  7. True nodes in direct motion. Her subconscious energies were of very high potential but blocked by heavy karmic factors.
  8. And the worst for the last, Venus ascendent with ketu. Internally disengaged from all relationships. Zero understanding of her own self and her emotional and physical hurts. Ketu is a “pretender” able to take up the personality the “other” wants. Anyone expecting something from her would get it. The Ketu would change her personality to suit what was being demanded of her. So she was superficially the ideal mother, student, wife etc but she was unaware of her own self. She had no “self identity”.

It was a long process of counselling her and her husband too and doing a series of mantras for ketu, mercury, sun and then finally saturn. She did deep healing with Vishnu Sahastranama and Srisukta. In this process she also learnt reiki and to do cards, Lenormand and Thoth. She was guided and helped but she did her self healing herself and used the tools given to her. And today at least she can speak up for herself and express what she feels and what she wants. She does a bit less housework and gives herself time. Her back aches less.

So speak up, express what ever is in your hearts. Do not wait till the emotional stress reaches such a point that the physical body starts getting damaged. If you are unaware of what you want, or cannot express it in words (it happens, I know) put this simple intention in the universe, “I will receive what I need to live my life health and happy on all levels”. Repeat this affirmation once a day for 21 days at least.

You have to take care of yourself first. Keep yourself mentally, emotionally and physically healthy so that you can move on and focus on to your spiritual health.

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Guru Sakshat Parabrahma..

Guruh Brahma Guruh Vishnu Guruh Devo Maheshwarah, Guru Sakshat Parabrahmah Tasmai Shri Guruve namah.

This is the sanskrit shlok on the foundation of which the business of the “modern gurus” is conducted. This year I saw this shlok being circulated on whatsapp on 5th sept celebrated as (school/college) Teacher’s day. The commonly circulated translation is “The Guru is Brahma, Vishnu and Shiv. The Guru is the All observing Parabrahma. And thus I bow down to that Guru”. So our School teachers and modern age gurus chant this and elevate themselves to the levels of Brahma, Vishnu, Mahesh and the Parabrahma. Such ego! It is unbelievable.guru sakshat parabrahmaWhat does ‘Guru’ mean in Sanskrit? ‘venerable, extended, heavy, serious, difficult, high, valuable, momentous, dense, attract’ etc, basically the ‘energy which attracts’. Remember this is a sanskrit word used in the context of spiritual studies, so intention and layers and layers of meanings.

A school/college teacher is more properly an “adhyapak” in sanskrit. A school or college teacher should not be called a guru, it is an insult to the real Guru.

Second these modern age “spiritual gurus” who are only interested in establishing “centers”, businesses, brand names and products. They cannot live without AC, wear really expensive clothes, use expensive vehicles and just talk. Use complicated words to baffle and awe their followers. This is just bad karma that they are creating for themselves. It is is the greatest act against the conscience to purposely deceive an aspirant who has a genuine interest in spirituality.guru sakshat parabrahmaSo who is the Guru? He is the Satguru. The one who shows you, brings you, attracts you to the Sat/Eternal Truth. And the real Sat is your own Self. That which you have been searching for so long is Yourself. And thus the only force who can bring you to yourself is …. Your Own Self.

Next this shlok, remember Sanskrit, layers of meanings, So this shlok more properly means this, “Brahmadev is the Guru, Vishnu is the Guru, Maheshwar is the Guru, the ‘witness to all’ Parabrahma is the Guru. And thus I bow down to such Guru.” Brahmadev, Vishnu, Maheshwar and the Parabrahma are the energies which bring you to the Truth/Sat, bring you to Yourself. Thus it makes sense.

The difference between these 2 meanings is like heaven and earth.

And my personal belief is that I really do not need someone in a physical body to be my Guru. I believe that there is a higher self within me. I am a tiny bit of the Parabrahma myself and this tiny bit is my conscience/Antaratma. If I let my conscience be my Guru, it will take me to Myself. But living in this world of so many external influences, pushes and pulls, I have stopped hearing the voice of my conscience. So how do I hear Myself again? Only when I cut off these external voices and sit still.

Real Guru-s are quite rare in this world as only a Jivan mukt can be properly referred to as a Guru. These souls have experienced and transcended the Game of creation and have realised the Ultimate.

So to begin with, do start your spiritual practice, and practice sitting still. Your conscience will speak to you again and a day will come when you will start following your conscience. That is the power of Sat, your own.

Now listen to this Guru stotra by Uma Mohan which defines in even more details what a Guru actually is!

 

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Amrit Sukta..

The body is electromagnetic, the energy cores of the body are the six chakras in the spine and the 6 chakras in the head, vertices which power the system through the naadis (electrical wires!) and the electricity is called “prana“. There are 5 main types of pranic energies of which 2 are the most important. In an average human the naadi grid system, the chakra powerstations and the prana electricity itself is in a very sorry state of affairs. The primary reason for this is that we do not breathe properly. Surprised? Two reasons,

  1. Our breathing has become dependant on our emotional state, and just look at the range of emotions we go through in an average day. So breathing is highly compromised
  2. We are not aware of our breathing. It has become so mechanical that we really do not pay attention to our breathing.
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Breathing is just not the physical act of taking in air and then pushing out that air. Breathing is actually the action of 2 types of electricities, Prana which enters the body with energies from the universe and apan which sends out energies which are not needed from the body. If you ever learn to “see” your naadis and the prana energy moving through them you can observe the energy from the universe, first enters the body with the indrawn breath at the ajnya chakra, third eye. The seat of consciousness of at the ajnya chakra. After this the prana gets distributed throughout the body.

This brings me to my favourite sukta, Amrit Sukta from the Rig veda. This is also recited as Rudra Laghu Nyasa. Uma Mohan has recited the Rudra Laghu nyasa and Rattan Mohan Sharma has chanted just the Amrit sukta. Both renditions are exceptionally beautiful, do listen to them sometime, it touches your soul. I have listened to them both for hours and hours on a loop. It does induce a trance, a light meditative state, it is very enjoyable.

अ॒ग्निर्मे॑ वा॒चि श्रि॒तः । वाग्धृद॑ये । हृद॑यं॒ मयि॑ । अ॒हम॒मृते॓ । अ॒मृतं॒ ब्रह्म॑णि ।

वा॒युर्मे॓ प्रा॒णे श्रि॒तः । प्रा॒णो हृद॑ये । हृद॑यं॒ मयि॑ । अ॒हम॒मृते॓ । अ॒मृतं॒ ब्रह्म॑णि ।

सूर्यो॑ मे॒ चक्षुषि श्रि॒तः । चक्षु॒र्-हृद॑ये । हृद॑यं॒ मयि॑ । अ॒हम॒मृते॓ । अ॒मृतं॒ ब्रह्म॑णि ।

च॒ंद्रमा॑ मे॒ मन॑सि श्रि॒तः । मनो॒ हृद॑ये । हृद॑यं॒ मयि॑ । अ॒हम॒मृते॓ । अ॒मृतं॒ ब्रह्म॑णि ।

दिशो॑ मे॒ श्रोत्रे॓ श्रि॒ताः । श्रोत्र॒ग्॒ं॒ हृद॑ये । हृद॑यं॒ मयि॑ । अ॒हम॒मृते॓ । अ॒मृतं॒ ब्रह्म॑णि ।

आपोमे॒ रेतसि श्रि॒ताः । रेतो हृद॑ये । हृद॑यं॒ मयि॑ । अ॒हम॒मृते॓ । अ॒मृतं॒ ब्रह्म॑णि ।

पृ॒थि॒वी मे॒ शरी॑रे श्रि॒ताः । शरी॑र॒ग्॒ं॒ हृद॑ये । हृद॑यं॒ मयि॑ । अ॒हम॒मृते॓ । अ॒मृतं॒ ब्रह्म॑णि ।

ओ॒ष॒धि॒ व॒न॒स्पतयो॑ मे॒ लोम॑सु श्रि॒ताः । लोमा॑नि॒ हृद॑ये । हृद॑यं॒ मयि॑ । अ॒हम॒मृते॓ । अ॒मृतं॒ ब्रह्म॑णि ।

इंद्रो॑ मे॒ बले॓ श्रि॒तः । बल॒ग्॒ं॒ हृद॑ये । हृद॑यं॒ मयि॑ । अ॒हम॒मृते॓ । अ॒मृतं॒ ब्रह्म॑णि ।

प॒र्जन्यो॑ मे॒ मू॒र्द्नि श्रि॒तः । मू॒र्धा हृद॑ये । हृद॑यं॒ मयि॑ । अ॒हम॒मृते॓ । अ॒मृतं॒ ब्रह्म॑णि ।

ईशा॑नो मे॒ म॒न्यौ श्रि॒तः । म॒न्युर्-हृद॑ये । हृद॑यं॒ मयि॑ । अ॒हम॒मृते॓ । अ॒मृतं॒ ब्रह्म॑णि ।

आ॒त्मा म॑ आ॒त्मनि॑ श्रि॒तः । आ॒त्मा हृद॑ये । हृद॑यं॒ मयि॑ । अ॒हम॒मृते॓ । अ॒मृतं॒ ब्रह्म॑णि ।

पुन॑र्म आ॒त्मा पुन॒रायु॒ रागा॓त् ।

पुनः॑ प्रा॒णः पुन॒राकू॑त॒मागा॓त् ।

वै॒श्वा॒न॒रो र॒श्मिभि॑र्-वावृधा॒नः ।

अ॒ंतस्ति॑ष्ठ॒त्वमृत॑स्य गो॒पाः ॥

May Agni (fire) move into Vaach (sound), Vaach move into the Hrudaya (true divine knowledge/center/veda/soul/ajnya chakra), the Aham (Ego/I) move into Amrita (Non-death/beloved), Non-death move into the Brahma (divine)

May Vayu( (vital air) move into Prana (life/power/spirit), Prana move into the Hrudaya, the Ego move into Non-death, Non-death move into the Brahma

May Surya(energy of sun) move into the Chakshu (eye/sight), Chakshu move into the Hrudaya, the Ego move into Non-death, Non-death move into the Brahma

May the Chandrama (lunar energies) move into the Mann (visualization/belief), Mann move into the Hrudaya, the Ego move into Non-death, Non-death move into the Brahma

May the Disha (direction/region) move into the Shrotra (ear/hearing/knowledge of vedas), Shrotra move into the Hrudaya, the Ego move into Non-death, Non-death move into the Brahma

May the Aap (fluidity/flow) move into the Reta (seed/current/progeny), the Reta move into the Hrudaya, the Ego move into Non-death, Non-death move into the Brahma

May the Prithvi (earth element) move into the Sharir (solidity/strength), Sharir move into the Hrudaya, the Ego move into Non-death, Non-death move into the Brahma

May Aushadhi (remedy/herb) vanaspati move into the Loam (fine hair), the Loam move into the Hrudaya, the Ego move into Non-death, Non-death move into the Brahma

May Indra (excellent/chief/night/human soul) move into Bal (force/power/stamina), Bal move into the Hrudaya, the Ego move into Non-death, Non-death move into the Brahma

May Parjanya (rain/rain cloud) move into Murgha (top of head/summit/point), Murgha move into the Hrudaya, the Ego move into Non-death, Non-death move into the Brahma

May Ishan (wealthy/master/splendour) move into Manyu (passion/high spirit/zeal/sacrifice), Manyu move into the Hrudaya, the Ego move into Non-death, Non-death move into the Brahma

May Atma (self/soul) move into the Atma, Atma move into the Hrudaya, the Ego move into Non-death, Non-death move into the Brahma

May again the soul again be in harmony with the Higher Life (Ayu)

May the (prana) life force move towards the Intention (Aakut)

May the Universal energies increase the strings/vibrations/rays (Rashmi)

And remain within the guardian (Gopa) of the Non-death (Amrit)

This is a very inadequate translation. Devbhasha Samskritam cannot be translated into other languages, because there are no corresponding words and the real meaning of sanskrit words involves intention too. I do not translate sanskrit mantras/suktas ever, because they can never understood intellectually. These have to be felt and experienced. Still because this is the sukta which describes the movement of the energies necessary if we are to realise moksha, raise the kundalini/attain perfect knowledge, I tried to translate it.

(I use the website spokensanskrit.org for the meanings because it gives multiple meanings for the sanskrit words)

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And this movement of energy happens only when you are the Dhyan state when all the pran has been withdrawn from all the other naadis of the bodies and now moves only inside the shushumna naadi.

In this state of deep dhyan the breathing movement of the body stops, no air is exchanged. The prana directly enter the ajnya chakra/hrudaya. The ajnya chakra does not allocate this vital life force for bodily functions and organs of sense and action etc. The body may seem dead physically. This state is when samadhi can occur.

It is also interesting that when we are sleeping, the ajnya chakra sends the prana energy to the top of the head, the dashangula sthana. Sleep is a highly mysterious state which our scientists are trying to map with brainwaves and stuff. If they learn to see the prana flowing along the naadis all their research will be complete.

And you can also learn to observe this high energy drama going on inside your own bodies, start by learning to see aura first, then try to observe the movements of the chakras in the palms, then the 7 chakras and the naadis. It requires regular practice that is all.

There are so many mysteries inside your own self, so much to know and experience.

I really wonder how we humans can waste our time seeking temporary stuff on the outside when the inner world is so enormous, so extraordinary..

 

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Cards anyone?

Lets learn something fun today. Cartomancy! Specifically how to set up your very own Lenormand card set and use it. Of all the card sets and Tarot sets that I have worked with, Lenormand is a practical and a fun way of divination. No kaballah, no esoteric stuff, no high level words, just plain simple questions and answers. And it is a way of accessing the information hidden inside your own subconscious, a good way of listening to your own self.

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Now straight on to the practical stuff.

You can make this card set at home. I think for most of you this will be your first card deck. It is just so exciting to make your own stuff because they then pick up your energy and really become your own.

Buy a deck of normal playing cards and separate the following 36 cards, write their card names on the playing card using a permanent marker. I have also mentioned a few important keywords for each card. The keywords are quite logical too, eg “child” may actually mean a child, innocence, inexperience, trusting person, small issue, playful person, all the things that we actually associate with a child. So remembering the keywords should not be very difficult.

  1. 9 of hearts is “Rider” – short journey, young energetic man, speed, messages
  2. 6 of diamonds is “Clover” – tiny bit of luck, gamble, small joy, spark
  3. 10 of spades is is “Ship” – long journey, vehicle, departing, adventure,
  4. King of hearts is “House” – family, home, physical building of the home, establishment, privacy, safety, takin care, at home
  5. 7 of hearts is “Tree” – family tree, dynasty, health, spirituality, roots
  6. King of clubs is “Clouds” – difficulties, problems, smoke, misunderstanding, doubt, hidden
  7. Queen of clubs is “Snake” – karma, clever woman, desire, intestines, tubes, lies, knowledge
  8. 9 of diamonds is “Coffin” – ending, death, sadness, sleep, rest, exhaution
  9. Queen of spades of “Bouquet” – happiness, flattery, social interactions, politeness, flowers
  10. Jack of diamonds is “Scythe” – accidents, cuts, danger, sharp weapon, warning, speed
  11. Jack of clubs is “Whip” – exercise, sex, conflict, repetitive activity, arguments, pain, beating, action
  12. 7 of diamonds is “Birds” – conversations, nervousness, gossip, excitement, lots of messages.
  13. Jack of spades is “Child” – child, inexperience, innocent, playful, new starts
  14. 7 of clubs is “Fox” – man of the world, just business, crafty, cunning, be cautious, not trustworthy, tricks
  15. 10 of clubs is “Bear”- power, strength, food, leader, anger, influence
  16. 6 of hearts is “Star” – hope, spirituality, dreams, inspiration
  17. Queen of hearts is “Stork” – possibilities, changes, new beginnings, out of the box,
  18. 10 of hearts is “Dog” – best friends, loyalty, followers, devotion, support
  19. 6 of spades is “Tower” – institutions, big buildings, authority, being alone, ego, arrogance
  20. 8 of spades is “Garden” – social networks, a function, get-together, open areas, fame, happiness,
  21. 8 of clubs is “Mountain” – obstacle, heights,
  22. Queen of diamonds is “Crossroads” – options, opportunities, choice, travel, confusion
  23. 7 of clubs is “Mice” – theft, reducing, disease, filth, rubbish, infestation, flawed, parasites, stealing under your nose.
  24. Jack of hearts is “Heart” – love, forgiveness, romance
  25. Ace of clubs is “Ring” – commitment, marriage, completion, cyclic
  26. 10 of diamonds is “Book” – secrets, education, information available but not yet accessed, research, prescriptions
  27. 7 of spades is “Letter” – documents, communications, information
  28. Ace of hearts is “Man” – any male associated with the question asked, family member, husband etc
  29. Ace of spades is “Woman” – any female associated with the question asked, family member, wife etc
  30. King of spades is “Lily” – maturity, sensuality, wisdom, sex, morals, older woman, serenity
  31. Ace of diamonds is “Sun” – happiness, success, pride, power, heat, truth
  32. 8 of Hearts is “Moon” – night, subconscious, emotions, desires, intuition
  33. 8 of diamonds is “Key” – solutions, achievements, freedom, openness
  34. King of diamonds is “Fish” – finances, plenty, gains, treasures,
  35. 9 of spades is “Anchor” – stability, restrain, foundations, enduring
  36. 6 of clubs is “Cross” – suffering, burden, religious, principles, harsh, duty, bound

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In the Lenormand system, the name of the card is everything, the pictures of the cards have no divinatory meanings as such. The cards are read in pairs and sequences like a sentence. The cards have the same meaning upright or reversed. If you would like a short cut and not learn the above keywords then use the card combination meanings from this site.

Now to to play with your subconscious and your first card deck. Shuffle the cards and focus on a question, eg, “How is my day going to be today”. When you feel like it, stop shuffling and spread the cards out in a fan, with your non-dominant hand pull out 5 cards, lay them face down in a line as you pull them out and then turn them together.

Suppose you get this sequence “clouds scythe rider bear birds”. One interpretation of this could be “cloudy day” “cut sharply” “young man” “food” “conversations”, and it gets fulfilled as your day does not look so promising, confused, then suddenly the doubts get resolved, your boyfriend suddenly turns up and you eat food and talk together. The central card is the focus card around which the interpretation revolves.

Another example, “How is this new guy I met today for me?”, and you get “fox, tower, clover, man, mountain”, so one interpretation can be, “career/business” “office building” “small luck/gamble” “the young man in the question himself” “obstacle”. So you may think he would be a little bit lucky for your business establishment but in the end he will be a obstacle.

So you see for your first deck the Lenormand is perfect. Practical questions with practical answers. Right now you are on baby steps, trying to work around with cards. But Lenormand is definitely not a baby system, there are other spreads and ways to work with it, it is quite powerful and sometimes its answers will amaze you. As you learn the to interpret and learn to put meanings together you can use this system to its full potential.

Even later when you wish to experiment with self discovery, you should really try out Tarot, i.e. Thoth, Raider-Waite or Marseillus decks.

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I do consider cartomancy as one of the easiest and safest means to start accessing you subconscious. The answers do not come by “magic” but from your internal higher self, the cards are the tools, the medium, the “magic” is you, your own self.

So as a to-do.

Ask the cards this one question everyday, “How is my day going to be”.  Note the combinations in your diary and tally at the end of the day, how accurate they were and how good was your interpretation. Do this for 21 days at least before trying out the other spreads and stuff.

And all the best for your first step into divination.